.+*☹︎ Kana would stare at the smile with nothing but that darkened look in his eye one that was so deep most thought it could never go away. Or at least the thoughts in his head wouldn't the constant, ' Your useless, your stupid, your disgusting, be quiet, be quiet! BE QUIET YOU DISGUSTING CHILD! ' It rang in his head like a constant melody. Though he would grab his hair and pull it as he would lay down sideways facing away from Cherry he hated that smile. Why couldn't he have a smile like that ' I hate that smile, that disgusting smile, why can't I smile like that, it's disgusting it's horrible get rid of it ' he still had those constant thoughts he would start to scream and grab his hair seeming to try to rip it out. His screams were so loud and terrifying ☆*+.
A doctor entered with his results and quickly stopped him. The doctor lay him back on the bed
Doc: "sir. I know you've probably went through a lot but please. I don't know how you feel right now and I'm no therapist but right now there are millions of people trying to help you. We are not your enemies. These millions of people. They care about you. If you died it would be a tragedy. Please don't ki11 yourself. You'll have therapy sessions every week. But you have to talk to the therapist if you want things to get better. And you also have to be alive for that."
.+*☹︎ He would almost consider laughing but of course had no real emotion to do it. He hated the ideas you were putting in his head all he wanted was "love" what is this sappy stuff they speak of it’s not at all what he wants. Wheres all the bl0-d? He would shift side to side on his bed feeling an unbearable throbbing in his chest it pained him so much. Yet he kept that pain in. Like a hallow husk of what a person would have been. He is not a person he thinks that and he loves that thought so much . . . ☆*+.
(Ahem allow me to explain! So basically Kana thinks what love is, is basically abuse. He loves being abused and he loves bl0-d he is basically a psychopath in a teens body. After so much of the time tolling this is what he thinks love it, it may be years until that opinion at all changes because the voices in his head control him not himself. He has no will at all in fact to do anything! I like this character because it's a good way to say, you can't fix everything with happiness and rainbows you have no idea what some people were dealing with no idea what there opinions have shaped into. I also like him because the ab-s3 factor is kinda intriguing and plays a big toll on his character overall)
Cherry came in and sat on her phone (ah yes. Here we go.) she wasnt her previous happy-go-lucky self. The ray of sunshine had turned into a dull shadow. Her clothes were different and her hair was in a different style. She looked like a whole other person
“They say you dont talk. So i want to see how long youll stay silent if i just keep talking and talking and talking. Surely youll sag something then. If you dont talk. Then honestly i couldnt care less. Sound fair?”
She sounded like cherry but her demeanor was different and her whole vibe was off (ah. Beautiful. Also had to switch picrews bc i couldnt find the og.)
.+*☹︎ He'd stare though not caring for your looks at all he'd just say nothing. It's like he seriously had nothing to say. Mute emotionless what's next I wonder? He has so many things going wrong for him what else will go wrong. Will this girl keep babbling to herself or is she talking to me I wonder. She is so annoying... of course the thoughts only thickened a dark cloud a very dark cloud that covered him from anything else and anyone else. That isn't love of course! None of this is. Where is all the love where has it gone he wondered as he would start to scratch himself a bit more. The dirtiness the disgusting happiness here was overwhelming the sadness it was disgusting to him . . . ☆*+.
