hey, please don't ever feel like you have to apologise for who you are! i'm sorry you're in a situation where you feel like you can't present yourself as trans, but i hope that you'll find a space for yourself where you are comfortable doing that. i also want to say that even though you say you don't understand how it feels to be trans in society, you are trans, and that makes your experience a trans experience. you have your own troubles that you're facing and just because they're different from the ones in this game doesn't make yours any less valid.
thank you very much for sharing your experience with me.