i... i realized now why i too, identified with monsters and villains. i already feel quite subhuman at times for reasons I'd rather not specify here, but oh, now I see... it's both a confidence boost of the dramatic and enigmatic, but also an acceptance, how, even if I am the nice, incompetent sort of "villain" there will always be a "hero" trying to fight me... it's no wonder why I idealize the villain-villain rivalry over the hero-villain one.
and it's no wonder why i always play a reptile or robot or shadowy abyss when i can.
i... i too, am monsterous, am evil
but also, i am not
i am pure evil, i am pure and evil
i am what i am