i-i have depression too...it hurts to say this but...my 1 year old cousin dies...my aunt died....my mom hates me for being who i am.. a gay....i try so hard to make her happy and i guess its honestly not enough....my dad on the other hand fucking is rude to me im only 12 and they lay so much work on me! i have so much depressiojn and anxiety inside of me. i-i was broken so many times i want to die...when i found this site..it kept me distracted from my real life i feel happier on this website... im sorry your grand mother had surgery and if i were there right now i would talk to you and give you a hug........i want to be your friend...the only thing i got in this world is friends...im so fucking grateful to have you guys!...in life i got nothing but me and myself...