Wow. I feel so sorry for your experience. Is everything alright now?
For the family part, my parents made me think of suicide as they knew about my relationship in highschool. I struggled to discover myself and confront my family at the same time. I had no one to ask for help or talk to. I completely feel you bro.
I think, we don't have the right to choose where we are born but we do have the right to choose the way we live. Maybe it's not an easy path to walk through but we still survive and become who we are today. At least, we can be sympathetic to others and even our own children if one day they come out of the closet. (Trust me I really want to have kids around 👨👧👦 ) Now, being about to graduate from college as a teacher, I am trying my best to help my students having problem discovering their sexuality. We can't change the past but we can make an impact for a better future.
For all the things we have been through, we all deserve a Zach or Braden in our life.