i spent a good while being a caveman disconnected so when i got back the first thing i do is read the comments below for anyhing important... and all i can say is that im in shock to what im reading. So i really hope you get better soon hyao, take all the time you need to recover, rest and when you feel ready to post again (even a simple comment about anything) to know that youre doing alright and well. i wish you the best