this really got to me; I've been working on video game "side projects" forever.
The emotional "but I can't!" reaction I had to the idea of just making a game today was something else. I was so resistant. so I did it. I made, finished, and published my first video game today. fish climb trees now exists! it's a microcosm of my highest hopes for it, terrible by that metric; but perfect in that it exists outside of me now.
I feel giddy about it. thank you.