I relate to this so much, and your speaking out loud has emotion not found in text. I am queer and have a communication disability.
Thanks for speaking your thoughts and your self. You are a unique culmination of experiences. This is the real shit and I think this kind of soul is more important than most big grand games. The human condition is this confusion, and finding some kind of connection in this vast harsh world.
There is only one person like you in this world, same with all people, and I was moved from this.