You have nothing to apologize for. Your focus right now SHOULD be on your life and on your family. Take as much time as you need. We're all 100% okay with waiting as long as we need to. You attract a patient crowd.
I lost my grandma recently, so I know a bit of what you're going through. It's never easy.
Take care of yourself, and best of luck to you, DebatingPanda 🫰