Dear Panda,
My condolences on your loss. You are not alone. May you get through this rough time smoothly. Don't forget to stop and smell the roses and/or coffee but most of all, don't forget to breathe.
Though I want to play this game because it is sincerely a really good one, taking time to get past the things going on in your life, as well as you taking your time to get the game right where you want it to be takes precidence over making others happy.
Be well.