You get it! That's one of the whole running themes of rcvn is giving up your expectations and what you want for the greater good, without losing your identity in the process.
To make eco choose the path of fear, and refusing to embrace himself comes with some pretty hefty consequences... consequences that are hefty enough to make it incompatible with the sequel. That's why I gate kept it. It is in the game, you can technically go trial and error your way through it and unlock it. The art in the top scene is amazing, the special song is beautiful, but the writing is truly heart breaking at the culmination of it. You will feel like a very bad person if you pick it haha, which is very intentional. If you are imagining a hot, passionate scene, change your expectations. Eco is not happy for a single moment during it.