Pulling yourself out of a hole like that is a monumental task, and simultaneously feels like the easiest thing in the world in hindsight ("... why the hell did it take me so long to do that? What was I afraid of?") I'm half-convinced that kind of hindsight is just another form of self-beratement. ^.^' Congratulations for moving forward, honey - you deserve it. <3 And thank you for keeping us posted.