I gotta say this resonated with me so heckin bad, and I love you for it! It's so nice to read another person put my feelings into words, if that makes sense. Especially the whole impostor thing and whether or not to write your trauma online. I don't understand the draw towards publishing one's past, but it has such an incredible pull - like you said, maybe the ability to own our memories. I really hope you're in a good place, and can listen to your own words. As in this hard time, you helped me, I hope you have someone helping you too. You do good for the world in writing about your emotions. Beyond self-doubt, do not doubt that your words won't reach us - because they do. Thank you so much for this.