uhum....................
so after the shananagin with dbtp (#dontbanthepoost), I decided to undercover as- EHEM I mean, Doakes told me what happend when I left the game as he joined 5 min AFTER I left... and dbtp made a code to talk, while scruffy told doakes and dbtp that he was trans.....
OH FRICK SCRUFFYS GONNA HATE ME TOO
dbtp said that she didn't like my jokes and that they made her uncomfortable, which I completely agree with... but then she said that I didn't care about the warnings, I knew something like this would happen, and that's why I'm not crying at midnight on the bathroom floor, so that stung a bit when I found out abou- I MEAN EHEHEHEHHEM COUGH COUGH. when doakes told me... then when scruffy left, she told me- DOAKES, that she didn't....... like me. also she kept addressing me as a boy she did see me as non-binary but that was a bit frusterating, but anyways. I kinda totally agree with her reactions but for the record- it was a joke and I kept saying jkjk and I DID mean the joke for scruffy, so it was kind of frusterating but now idk what to do and how to fix this... I should js let her be, but I want to make sure she isn't mad at me like scruffy was that one m8m6 round where it was so chaotic and everyone was hating on bats and I tried to get n1-king and bats to stop arguing but then I crashed out and then scruffy did and uhhhh lol.
but I'm js worried, and ik I did the wrong thing spying on the- I MEAN, getting doakes to tell me what he heard, but I'm js lost. BUt also, I knew this was coming so this is NO SUPRISE to me at all................................ I'm js wondering what I should do and if I should make it clear that it was for scruffy, or just leave her alone....