Don’t think your well being is less important than the work you’ve made. I lost my best friend last year (he passed away), someone I might have married had things been different. I truly and sincerely hope you get things sorted for yourself and you’re happier and healthy, have a home to go to, and take care of yourself. It may feel completely out of place for me to say this to you now only just now seeing this update. If I had read it sooner I’d have said exactly the same thing. What you’re going through is incredibly difficult. I’m in the process of trying to move overseas and I have doubts I’ll be successful in the end, but we have to try for ourselves. If things don’t seem like they’re looking good, look at the horizon and see what you find. Perhaps there is something there you can latch onto. And if you need anyone to talk to, we’re here. If I or anyone else can give you encouragement at the very least, I want to do that. Much love to you, your work has touched many and will continue to do so come what may. <3