NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....it's still not complete....
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That's because I haven't been working on it x3 Sorry aboot that >.<
It sucks cos the full story has been finished in written form for years now xD Just not managed to get around to actually turning it into a game still :(
It haunts me every day, haha.
Why does coding stuff have to be such a long and gruelling process T_T
My current main project is Lovestarved. I released the demo of that for otome/josei jam back in summer 2024, then got hit with a really bad case of autistic burnout >.<
It was my plan/hope to manage to finish and release the full version of Lovestarved by the end of this year, but my burnout hung around for longer than ever before T_T As a result, I haven't managed to write a single line of code so far this year :(
My burnout is FINALLY beginning to bugger off, and I'm getting some energy back to get on my PC and work on stuff :3 (although, with significantly less free time than in the past, due to having a loooot of health-related appointments to attend on a regular basis this year >.<)
Right now, I'm only able to focus on music, as the monotony of coding is still too much for me to concentrate on.
So yeah, sadly, I'm not gonna manage to finish Lovestarved by the end of this year, as I estimate it'll take around 4-5 months of full-time work to complete it (story is 100% written, but lots of code still to do, voice acting lines to cut + edit, and a bunch of CGs to finish... then, ofc, the hell that is testing x3)
It's still my intention to get Lovestarved done before I pick up where I left off on other projects, but I haven't decided yet what I'll focus on once Lovestarved is done.
It would make sense to finish CiQ next since that's also fully written! Cos the other projects I've got on hold that are still unfinished are also largely unwritten >.< Still got heaps of writing left to finish for Darling Duality, for example.
Recently found out I also have ADHD, on top of my already diagnosed autism, so that helps to explain how I ended up with so many unfinished projects on the go xD
I know I'll get there in the end and manage to finish all of them cos I've managed to complete plenty of other projects in the past :3 It's just gonna take a long time, unfortunately >.<
Sometimes I do wish I were better able to restrain myself and keep some of my ideas as just notes or drafts rather than starting them and releasing demos, cos I worry it might be annoying for people if they happen to play and enjoy a demo, but then wind up waiting ages for more :(
The problem is, if an idea really grabs my attention, I just can’t resist focusing on it. Same goes for if I lose interest in an idea temporarily, I can’t force myself to work on something I don’t feel like working on because I wind up staring at a screen getting nothing done at all, so that kinda kills things in their tracks until I get the urge to work on them again >.<
It feels like a curse tbh, haha.
All I know, is that I will get there eventually and finish everything… provided I don’t die first x3
Yeeeeah, hehe. I blame the 'tism for that tbh x3
Ahh, I never published it anywhere >.< It’s just been sat on my hard drive for heck knows how many years T_T Feels like such a waste to have it just sitting there!
I’ve been wondering lately if it might be better to turn it into an audio drama (with choices, still) instead. I dunno if it would work in that format without looking back over the entire script, but it would sure be easier than coding the entire damn thing, haha. Or audio + a bit of video, so that we can still see the characters represented visually somehow!
I keep thinking that about a lot of my unfinished projects, actually. That they may stand a chance of getting finished faster if I were to make them into a series of interactive videos rather than code them as games. Cos like, it’s the coding that’s the hardest (and most soul-destroying) part! I’d have more fun making them if I didn’t have to write code x3
And I know you’d lose some features that only really work in a game, but at the same time, it should also technically make the stories more accessible overall :3
Been pondering it ever since I ended up in burnout, because I definitely don’t wanna abandon any of my projects, but even when I’m fully clear of burnout, I worry that if/when I can muster the energy to code, it’ll send me back into burnout again because it’s such a chore >.<
Thank you for the well-wishes ^-^ I hope to get there someday :3 Just sucks that it’s at a snail’s pace, haha.