reading this has been comforting to say the least. it reminds me of my friends, the people i've met, the communities i've been in, the good, the bad, everything. i have a lot of words and thoughts for this but no good way to really put them all together. it reminds me a lot of my own mind, and the mind of my closest friends, and those who are left in the past. it makes me miss people i knew. i dont know. its so real and raw. it really makes you think. i wish there was a way for me to hug the memories of the people you've invoked. i'm in a better place than i was, being the past self this reminds me of, and it just...rips into you a bit. i see a lot of myself in maya. you truly do need to take the initiative on your own to change, no matter whats going on, you have to force yourself to heal. that shit hurts. maybe i'll come back to this later maybe i won't. just know that i love you