I apologise for this horrific incident. Please do take some time out from this game, and maybe drink some water. Perhaps a lovely bowl of soup might help.
Stay calm. Think of ducks.
Floating gently on a pond.
Relaxing.
Don't think about their frantic little legs paddling away at 100 miles an hour under the water, that won't help. Just think of the calm water, and the happy little ducks.