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This is very lengthy and very rambly and I apologise if I've said anything that makes you uncomfortable. English is also not my first language but I really want to just pour my heart out.

When I saw this on itch.io, I felt myself almost tearing up. Almost. Which is more than I can say nowadays with mental health kicking my ass and my body shutting down. I got into the Creepypasta fandom at 13, in 2020. Right during the Pandemic and was predominantly active on the Creepypasta Quotev community. While searching for Creepypasta RP quizzes, I stumbled upon this little gem. I immediately got hooked. I don't think it was the first Creepypasta RP quiz I took, but it was the first Creepypasta RP quiz that was completed and I could actually complete. I spent nights hidden in my room, huddled under blankets and my Ipad hidden under a pillow doing this quiz. The writing, the character portrayal, the passion and immersive storyline got 13 year old me hooked. Now let me tell you, this. This was the shit for me then. You know how some Creepypasta Quotev writing can be, and Room Without A View was one of the few Creepypasta works with proper grammar, no cringey lines (at least for 13 year old me) and a somewhat more mature storyline. To say this warped my view of Creepypasta fanfiction would be an understatement, it became a staple, the standard I compared every single Creepypasta work I came across. When I completed Room Without A View for the first time, I felt empty. Because so far, nothing could compete. Nothing came close to this Creepypasta work. Till this day, I still would give everything and anything to experience Room Without The View for the first time. I scoured, I compared, I dug deep into every crevice of sites that had Creepypasta works on them or a Creepypasta RP quiz series that could hold even a candle to Room Without A View. I found none. And when I tell you I dug on Quotev, I dug. Wouldn't be strange to find my Quotev handle on Creepypasta RP quizzes or Creepypasta quizzes in the comment section during 2020-2021. So I mourned. Room Without A View became a comfort piece. An all time favourite. A first. Something special that had become apart of me. I'd retake the quiz, read the other results, pray day by day that the sequel would be continued. 

At 15, I fell out of love with Creepypasta, left the fandom. But Room Without A View still had a special place in my heart, I still thought about it from time to time. Room Without The View is one of the reasons I started writing for the Creepypasta fandom. One of the reasons I started publishing fanfiction I wrote. Whether the fandom is Creepypasta or not, it inspired me to write. It was a major push for me into wanting to share a piece of myself with the Internet. Seeing Room Without A View gave me that want to share something on the Internet, whether that something be good or not. I just wanted to share. It made me want to share. It gave me some of the confidence to. 

Throughout the years, I fell in and out of the fandom in random bursts. Never for long. Nothing could compare to my 13-14 Creepypasta craze. 

Till this year. I'm finally 18. Woah, big change. College. No longer a teen. Not a minor now, young adult now. Woah, very scary and life altering. Moving away from home finally. I've been suffering from a major depressive slump for more than half a year now. I'm failing college. My nostalgia and want for escapism pushed me back into Creepypasta. Of course, my obsession wasn't as heavy as back then, but this time I stayed and lurked in the fandom on Tumblr. I used to retake the quiz from time to time, jumping from random chapter to random chapter. But in March I think, my birthday month, when I finally got into the fandom again. I retook the entire series for the first time. I cried. The comfort, the nostalgia, the familiar memory of being 13 and curled up in bed and kicking my feet over Room Without A View. I was suddenly 13 and stupid and younger and happier again. That was the kind of joy Room Without A View brought me. For a brief moment, I could forget about all the dullness of my new life and feel like a young wide eyed girl again. Room Without A View did that for me. I still take the quiz from time to time sometimes when things get rough, or when I simply want some serotonin boost. It always makes me happy, it always reminds me of sweet 13 and being in the Creepypasta fandom where I found out so much about myself. Alt culture that had me learning being different was okay when I was trapped in a rigid, close minded environment growing up. Learning about the world more through social media as I finally got my phone. Meeting an online friend I've kept in contact on Quotev for five whole years because of Creepypasta. The friends I made in the fandom. I'd give anything to be 13 again, and Room Without A View makes me 13 again. 

My words are failing me. Haven't slept in a day lol. I have homework due and I'm still rotting in my apartment. But the genuine joy that sparked through me when I saw this up on itch.io? That was real. That was warm. That was nice. 

Even with all this, there's so much I want to say about Room Without A View that I can't properly articulate into words. And this might be silly to say, and might be too heavy, but Room Without A View has played a small part in making sure I'm still here today. It's pulled me through some of the nastiest of times just by being there for me to enjoy. It's more home than my home has ever felt. 

5 years is a long time. Or not. I've grown fascinated with many different media, but ever since 13, Room Without A View has changed me as a person so fundamentally that I can't really think about how to seperate it from the me today. It was there. And just by this piece of fiction being there, I found life a little easier to live. Everything for a moment didn't seem that bad. 

So, thank you again. Even these words can't express how much gratitude and love I have for this work. No matter the path this series takes, I just hope to enjoy it if I can, while I can, when I can. 

Room Without A View is endlessly special to me, and everyday I am grateful I've gotten to witness this work you've decided to share with the Internet. 

I saw this post almost as soon as you posted it. I apologize that it's taken me this long to reply. I was so deeply moved. I knew that a message this beautifully heartfelt deserved a reply that was just as honest and thoughtful. So here I am.

First things first, nothing that you said made me uncomfortable. I love honesty. I love that you took the time to even write this. I admire you. I thank you for giving me some of your time. This message made me cry (in a good way). It also came to me at a semi rough time in my life. The stars must have aligned or something. It inspired me to be better as a person. It put me back on the right track when it comes to my creativity and the reasons I wanted to write in the first place.

Now let me get into the nitty gritty. 

I am so incredibly happy that my little story helped you in any fashion. I love imagining you hiding under blankets and taking the quiz. It reminds me of how I was when I was in the fandom. Even though this fandom is a little cringe and strange at times, it is something that I will never be ashamed of. Its just like any other niche interest. Fanfiction has been around since I was young. It lets you free yourself; get lost in fantastic worlds. You feel close to the things you love. It makes me happy to see people enjoying the things they like, not for anyone else, but themselves; no matter how weird it may be to others.

For you to call this piece a standard humbles me so deeply. I wanted this to be good. I would spend hours upon hours plotting out the story line. I would bug friends constantly to make sure that things made sense. I fell in love with the little world I built on top of the lore in other creations. I wanted something cohesive, even if it was just for fun. It makes me so happy that you regard it so highly and it helped you through rough times. It was one of those things that also helped me through as well.

To touch on a quick mention, I do fully intend on continuing the sequel. My notes are all planned out for the entire story. Now that this chapter is out for the VN, I will get working on it. Slow going and maybe it might sound a little odd because it’s been so many years, but I’ll get it out there.

I am so proud of you. Putting yourself out there, even on the internet where it is possible no one will ever find your writing, it is still incredibly scary. I’ve been writing fanfiction since I was thirteen and I’ve made some ripe stinkers in my day. They say that you should put your art out there even if it’s no good. That’s the best and fastest way to learn not only your craft, but yourself. I live by that. Even this Visual Novel isn’t everything I wanted it to be, but I need to keep pushing. With that practice, comes pride and confidence in yourself. People can feel the love that you put into your work. You should be incredibly proud of yourself. 

One of my motivators for creating anything, fanfiction or not, is to inspire others. I want them to feel loved. I want them to not feel so alone. Most importantly, I want them to feel powerful in their own skin. If I can achieve even a tiny bit of that, then I’ve done something right in my life.

Eighteen is a whirlwind. Yes, you’re right, it's extremely frightening to be on your own in this big unforgiving world. I used to have my biggest pitfalls right when that shift was happening. My depression was at its zenith. I felt all these expectations and like my life was supposed to be on treads. It felt like I was spiraling out of control most of the time. Never in my life did I want to run away from myself and my future more than I did in those days.

I’m 32 years old now, and I’m not going to give you any cliche words like “it gets better,” because I can’t tell the future and I’m not you. The advice that I do have for you I actually stole from a psych ward technician back in the day mixed in with some personal experience. One thing: you’re going to make a lot of mistakes. It’s not the end of the world to make mistakes, in fact, you’re going to make lots of them in order to really learn what you do and don’t want with yourself and your life. It’s a lot harder learning to forgive yourself for those mistakes, but that is the one thing that will keep you moving forward. You don’t need others to forgive you, and you don’t need perfection. Forgiving yourself and living on is enough.

As for college, I don’t know your situation. I do want to let you know that personally, I’ve failed college like four times before I actually had the time management, mental stability, focus, and commitment to get a degree. It’s just an A.A. but it was enough for me. If I need to learn more, I’ve decided that I will make that time, do those hoops, and figure it out later. My degree didn’t even help my job really. Life is wacky like that. Keep trying. Do your best. Understand that if something bad happens and you manage to fail, you will be able to try again. That might mean that you have to work harder next time, and the obstacles might be bigger, but you will achieve what you truly want to. Balancing all of these things can be extremely tricky. It takes a lot of practice.

I’m extremely happy that you are finding yourself in alt culture, connecting with friends that truly lift you up, and are still keeping in touch with that thirteen year old version of yourself. You’ll want to keep that person around. A peaceful memory and world that you have in your heart will always keep you safe in dark times.

I hope this reply wasn’t too off putting or snobbish sounding.

I have nothing but intense love and pride when it comes to people like you who I’ve seen grow up through the years. My work will always be here for you whenever you need it. 

Thank you from the bottom of my soul,
Chante`
AKA Bugsy Potter
Veilwalker Studios