Thats a lot of words for saying you're being physically and emotionally abused by your family and little brother. Slight uptick of respect for admitting to a stranger that you sleep with a teddy-bear that has bare witness to your crimes against mankind. I shall be praying for your downfall and then your rise from the ashes as somebody who isnt going to get stepped on by their family in their 30's after your little brother abandons you for college and hates your guts.