love you as i am thoughts
it might just be my browser since i use a nonstandard one, but the game did not play so i downloaded it instead. my first impression was that i like this music and the GUI is stylized nicely despite being in the same layout as the default settings.
i was already looking forward to the art, but i love taking time to look at the CGs here. sometimes it feels like i am deciphering a map or an intricate mural full of very purposeful strokes and details. every time there was a new CG i spent a while picking it apart.
the writing style really caught me immediately! the first person narration is so intensely intimate that i feel like im reading a diary, or someones most secret thoughts. the obsession and adoration comes across so so well. after finishing the game, im genuinely blown away by how much i enjoyed the writing of this. it felt both realistic and deeply personal and i loved how the themes of self-hatred and shame worked alongside the singleminded obsessive love; accepting self-love conflicted with completely and only loving eumane.
the shift from vara's introduction monologue to eumane returning some of her flirtations surprised me because it started feeling more lighthearted and silly. adding to that with the sudden conversation topic being so silly, there was a big tone shift that made things feel like the two of them both get along, but it also made me laugh a lot and i felt really surprised. i think the levity added a lot to the experience.
oh my god, i was really not expecting the first bad ending to be like that. at all. i could not have ever predicted that. i got pranked. and suddenly, the tone shifted to extremely serious, and i actually really loved where it was going. there were so many twists going on that i felt blindsided often, but the extremely emotionally honest dialogue that went on way longer than i expected it to and the music choices brought it home for me. it was also unfortunately very easy for me to sympathize with a lot of what was going on. im a sucker for vulnerability and the execution was impressive. it ended up not really feeling like a bad ending because i enjoyed it.
i have a lot of feelings about the good ending that i dont know how to put into words, but i thought it was amazingly done. thank you for making this and uploading it.