I used to have te same obsession, but I'm somewhat past it.
It's a force of habit with me. For example, no matter how many times I restart Skyrim and try to use a different setup, I always gravitate towards one handed, two handed, blacksmithing and conjuration. And dark souls/Elden ring games are also the same way. I start off wanting to play dex, but end up str/mag build in the end lmao. I physically can't stop myself. I guess if they're rare, I'll just have to spend all day doing it til I find one for my starter slave to consume. But that gets difficult with the addition of the mini events. Makes it take that extra few seconds every 3-4 days. So I can't just spam keyboard number 3 500 times to have so many potential recruits to scroll through and find one. 😂😂😂