I KNOW RIGHT?! Spoilers for Orc War (END-ish)
It was the same when Feliar fucking DIED for me!!! I didn't realize that could happen until it happened and, after realizing it was indeed permanent, I QUICKLY restarted my save cuz ain't no way I am losing my lovable huggable big fluffy satyr EVER! Not too choked up over Vicoria, she's cool but compared to Feliar I'm not torn up over her death. Either way, I didn't expect actual DEATH in my big buff hairy men game, like I'm here to drool over big men not cry ToT