i started reading this IF months ago but genuinely, nothing had made me feel the way i'm feeling right now. chapter 12 was, holy moly. it feels like there's a pit in my stomach; as if i was living through everything that occurred in this latest chapter. i truly love this IF so much (ó﹏ò｡) and god, rylan... i am genuinely going insane over the complexity of the relationship between the MC (or well us kinda since the IF is first-person pov..) and them. the freaking silent exchanges this chapter i'm screaming ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) i absolutely love the pace of the progression with rylan but i NEED something more NEOWWWW (⊙෴◎) sigh, i don't think i'm gonna be able to wait for the next chapter without going insane (◞‸◟；) author you are so amazing i love you and your writing so much pls don't explode