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Ok think I figured out where I went wrong / what I missed.  Lead to part I don't remember even seeing before!

And after some time... caught up!

Crazy maybe.  No, can't keep running..., but can't keep letting it all out either.  No one ever expects their own words to be used against them so that is why one should not forsake their word.  Be mindful of what you preach, if you cannot practice.  It is infuriating, but I stand to be no exception.  To move on is to not dwell and to not dwell is not to forget.  Ties into MM I think.  I love it!!!  :///3  That is why I love him, hew il only bend for the right person or reasons!

!  He just said it! :O  As long as the love is honest and reciprocated, not under threat or duress.  It is nice to honor the fallen, but be aware of the scope, and do not overdo it.  There is a difference between one single known be few and many known by many fews.

This might be a bit double standard as what Chris did does not amount to what Russel "did" by far..., however if they implemented a zero-tolerance policy as a result... *sigh* not fair, but they felt compelled to be strict.  She is very sweet and understanding!  If anyone can help it is Rus.  Hrm?

Two people hanging out together doesn't automatically make it something more, annoying that ANYONE does this in the first place.  Honesty!  This is what frustrates me about people, even I am guilty, having expectations of something form the start only for it to crash once the reality catches up.  I want to feel for her, but it feels like she keeps setting herself up for failure :/  Some may be clingy, I know I can be, but you need to tell them to back off and give space!  Expectations after all do work both ways!  So, it is just as much these guys are setting themselves up to fail too.  COMUNICATION people!  In the end though we all need help, even from ourselves.  Medication has its uses, but it only ever deals with symptoms, never the root cause, we must take steps to better ourselves to not have to rely on it.  Good gods..., the only thing scarier than being manipulated by people directly is being manipulated by circumstances or people indirectly, which only makes it easier to be directly manipulated, it robs us of agency and dulls our perceptions to the bigger picture even before someone else comes in to shut it further.  Bullying and ganging up on people should not be allowed and should dealt with properly not forcefully, by ANYONE!  There is no lie I've wanted to kill myself a number of times before.  Even putting Nate to shame and after I found I was able to tolerate Nate's level.

A Star is Born.  Aw...  Holding hands is fine, it is not something outright sexual.  No need to hide who you are, just be mindful of your surroundings.  Time and place.  That is why I love him, he does not ooze and exude Gay, he maintains being professional as needed.  Yes, he has had to loosen up a little.  This is what I call "Simple Gay", they keep it low key and do not let it dictate how they act.  Be careful about fear of judgement, for while it may hold you back, it also can lead to behaviors that cement reasons for the judgments you fear to be proven.  Do not want to act in a way that validates what you fear.  The assumption of judgement leading to that judgement happening.  Now it is right and fine to be able to admit who you are, but here is no need to be making it some big announcement or celebration as its importance is only to you.  Being able to let things out is important, but it needs to be in a safe space, safe spaces themselves though can be VERY misleading.  What I find ironic about media out there is people trying to portray Gay as a behavior or mannerism when in fact they are Gay themselves just trying to promote their own attitude and views onto others.  Do have any idea how that makes other people feel and think?  Fighting something can be just as harmful as giving into it, it's about balance, do not let either side consume you entirely or you will lose who you are.  No argument that people have validation issues, but the issue is how we get hat validation, it needs to be sincere.  Honestly that is how I feel like I never measure up.  These next message here, that is the sort of thing I want to pose to ANYONE no matter what their IDENTFIER!!!  Stop trying to ignore problems just because it suits your own interests!!!  We do need to move on from our past, but so too do others need to allow us to move on.  That is right, it all starts with responsibility.  Ok this cute! X3

I am left more than pleased, what you are doing, is all I could ever ask for people to be doing, to reign things in, be realistic, but not give up who we are.