After playing (reading?) it, I wonder if this is your "I Don't Know James Rolfe" moment.
Oh noooAm I Dan Olsen in this scenario... or am I James? 😭
The former? In the sense that part of your essay's motivation came from looking back on your work and the communities you've been part of.
TBH it could just as easily be "here is the self-proclaimed magnum opus of an uncurious jerk perpetually stuck in his teen years" 🤣