i. Hate. My. life. (Sorry, the ending is better..)
I deleted my writing by swiping back once too often, again!
I wrote so many good things. I wish I could restart my life or day or week or month or year.
This really is embarrassing and mindbreaking. I need to do more than just change the browser.... or we use WHATSAPP! Ah right discord OfficialNoonOn #0115 then I write my phone number, if it is ok for you. I'd understand if you want to keep yourself distanced or keep it “professional“.
Anyway PLEASE???
Let me just say... tomorrow, hopefully, maybe definetly. I don't even know at this point. (I don't have time left to write all of it again)
(I wish I could be there for you to carry the burden of all your bad experiences. What I could do is maybe cheer you up by being the silly guy I am... Sometimes, propably because of my ADHS, my mind goes miles a minute and I wanna do, think and comprehend more than I can in the fraction of a specific time. Sometimes I wish I could live in one of the many fantasies of mine, like Perry Rhodan or a furry world. I would like fighting in a war much more than living a normal, everyday life, to have a purpose. What are your fantasies? Do you have any you want to share with me?
Right now a better future is all I wish for. A future in which I have friends I can trust with my life and talk about silly things and do silly things or even break the rules... I will never understand what my purpose is. Why I am here, now and where I will go, what will happen.
The most important thing is having a fullfilling life, keeping every good and maybe not so good person tight by your side, forming your very own/personal opinion about basically everything and simply being a loving person.
Believe me it's not easy for me, like at all. But you and me can always hope we will get there one day or the other.
I love talking to you. It helps me and I do hope it helps you too. Keep being awsome, even if it's 'only' in the net, for now. Everyone is worth something and yes you too!)
Tomorrow hopefully sigh ;/