insane experience. struggled a bit thru the first 100 or so pages, but then got totally hooked.
i felt the thrill of reading edgy torture porn-adjacent lit, i got turned on, and i felt a lot of complicated feelings.
i didn't cry but on three different occasions, i curled up and sobbed dry, my body shaking around me. i think there's a lot of grief here and an almost unbearable tenderness. i felt seen.