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I'm someone whose grown really cynical of like. That specific brand of white queer "puppygirl" art  (Admittedly, I'm already fighting a losing battle in terms of feeling connected to these spaces, being a Filipino who doesn't live in the USA and an aroace with specific feelings about relationships) so I was really curious (and a bit cynically preparing for something uninteresting) when I saw this. Well, suffice to say you did not disappoint and this was actually a very good and enjoyable read. 

It made me think a lot of about my own body of work...like. For a while I let my characters (who I base of my experience and are Filipino) languish in the realm of ambiguous "not-white"-ness out of understanding that if I confirm them as Filipino they would not be accepted in white spaces, which was mixed in with my own disconnect with how white people expect cultures outside of them to be portrayed (ie: objectified and fetishized and reduced to something white people can either point to, to go "see, those (orientals) asians have feelings and personality just like we do" or be ogled at and marveled for their own "exoticness" or, what tends to happen more in regards to SEA identities esp from what I have seen is play up our own despair at our terrible (and disgusting) lives but not say the reasons Behind that despair (imperialism) (and thus create justifications for colonialism through this-)) vs how I'd portray them as someone who lives in that "other" culture making me feel disconnected from my own life. The white pov is so omnipresent it makes me doubt my own experiences. 

Admittedly, there's a lot of things that happen in my life that have made me feel disconnected from my physical world, so I spend a lot of time in digital spaces but I end up usually feeling like I'm either whitewashed or tokanized, when I try to join in on what seems to be an inclusive community while white people in the space cry "puppygirl" over their overtly racist actions. Like, I should say something but the risk of being killed on spot and then have my head paraded around like I was the one in the wrong really does, scare me lol. And I know from...past, experience, that even if I did the idea of changing things on my own is rather unattainable

And, also, I have characters who are Japanese, usually because they are based on characters who are Japanese. But my body of reading on both immigration and Japan itself is still pretty slim and should be worked on. So I can't say I am sinless in this regard either. But, my general point is (god you can tell I'm writing this at 4am) is that...this was really good. It made me think a lot about these things. Thank you for writing this.

As someone with...there own beginner kinda messy askblog and that I still need to finish. Natbakke really resonates with me here. I saw "thinly veiled rip off" and felt like biting my own hand lol. It was an extremely delightful read though. The sincerity and genuine enthusiasm in Lottie's words was really nice, the reminder that no matter how "old" or "bad" something is that it could still and maybe has touched someone genuinely. That your work as an artist can and will matter for people. Itsa good!

Ah that explains it! Ive been avoiding lazing around most of the time...thank you!

Incredibly fun game! The art and writing is wonderful! Though it seems like the game is refusing to let me continue it heh...even if get Divine Order to 100 and summon a lot of minions I can't seem to defeat Cuthulu...