Hi! Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts 💚
Generally, while writing, I was thinking of a writer/artist thinking about their OC they created. When creating OCs, I believe we tend to always put a little part of ourselves into them - this can be by giving them personality traits which resemble some of our own, or personality traits we wish we had. In the case of the writer in my story, they created an OC which had traits they wish they had.
Often we think about things we did, situations in which we reacted a certain way or didn't react a certain way, and start overthinking: "That was not how I should have handled this. I wish I had done it differently." Often we learn from these situations and remember them for the next time, but often it's also very hard, because we're so so afraid of what could happen.
My writer dealt with this by creating an OC that did everything they wish they had done. It can be difficult to look at a person that reminds you of everything you don't like about yourself.
I believe poetry is written to evoke emotions and can be interpreted in many different ways, because every person had different experiences in their life, so they interpret it one way or another. However, I do see why it could be confusing. I'll work on making my intentions a bit clearer for future stories! Thank you!