I'm transmasc. I read this over the course of several days because I needed to take breaks from the intensity. This was the emotional equivalent of a concussion from a roller coaster.
The way you write about trans internet dynamics and different transmasc eras/subcultures and detransition is such a gut punch. A quote that stuck with me is: "All of it: you can sure I care about it, I care about your mental wellness, but trauma-dumping is tantamount to sin, please can you get support with the friends you don’t have, the therapy you can’t afford, the doctors that hate you, the time off from work that you can’t get. So you can turn into someone that doesn’t deserve exile.”
I've been following all kinds of transmasc-internet-centered stories like Max Graves' What Happens Next or Hal Schrieve's Vivian's Ghost. Transfag Home Video shines uniquely and captures the feeling of flinching in real life in a terrible social situation. This story is a gem kind of like a geode cracked open with ragged edges. Thank you. I'm going to be re-reading this for a long time.