I don't really have a way to describe how I felt while playing the game other than it hit close to home.
Read a few comments and I am honestly glad to see so many people empathise with the game, and are still here, alive and commenting. Stay safe everyone.
Thank you for making the game and having the courage to publish it.
/!\TW: suicide and mental health and a spoiler for the game
"It looks so effortless": I've thought the same when I saw characters in medias committing suicide. And I felt a little jealous at how easy it looked to them. My main reason for not doing it was " What if my death pushes my friends over the edge?", "What if I end up in a coma?", "What if I fail to do it well, and it just ends up being painful?" and all those doubts. There's so much to worry about. I remember trying to desperately search for a reason to keep going on while I felt myself getting numb. Like "I need to see x character have a happy ending"
And oh god, when the MC went on about how they tried their best but didn't manage to make it work again and again. And the moment of resignation. It was painful to read. Made me wish I could hug MC.
I could write a lot more but I'll stop for now. Sorry for rambling so much. I am just really emotional after playing the game. (I replayed it a few times, and I'll probably do that again)
I may delete the TW part later. I am starting to regret it ghfdiorh
Anyways
Truly thank you for making this game and take care.