maybe he means he wants it so if your depressed or miserable you just don't hurt yourself, you just remain depressed like crazy, because again by his words "i cant stand dying by suicide" so maybe that'll work out i guess right?
oh my god breathing button??? that'S LIKE HARD TO MANAGE AMONG EVERYTHING ELSE??? very funny concept though, now about the rest those actually seems like a really good idea tbh :>
that'd be nice but if you watch them bleed out i'd feel you get like a shit ton of trauma (enough to put you near shell shocked which is really, really not great.)