I hope I'm not late but there is this little saying that goes: "suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems." And problems will occur like on everyone, you will go through tortures but in the end, what you live for, are the 3 hours you spent laughing your lungs out with your best friend on that night you decided to paint your nails while trying to do face paint to each other and had SpongeBob playing on a phone with one of those cheap screens to make the image bigger. You don't live for those 3 hours you cried your eyes out. I am not going to beg you to continue living but i know that somewhere inside you, you have that meaning. Even if you don't, do it for the ones you love. Have experiences, live your life. Don't just breathe. After this, if you still want to go, then do something exciting. Get on a motorcycle and go on a mountain. Do all the crazy shit you can imagine and if you did, you've achieved your goal. If not, there's a new goal waiting for you. Good luck on your own adventure.