not a trans woman, but a genderfluid person, and a lot of this hit me pretty hard, i cried at the end. i worry a lot about the future, and how it will be for other trans and nonbinary folks. and because of that i often feel like i have some sort of responsibility to take on to help and protect and guide other trans people, especially other nonbinary folks, because of how scary and confusing it can be to navigate through the gender binary, and how many people outside of the community dont take us seriously, not just identity wise, but also as human beings, and thus we will internalize that and not take ourselves seriously. and you can get so entangled in these actions of putting other peoples needs and safety before yours that you start to wonder if its all youre good for, if thats all youre here to do. you start to treat it like thats the task youve been "built" to do, so to speak. and then you start to hurt people unintentionally, without even knowing, because you dont know how to approach these things in a healthy way, and all you so badly want to do is to snuff out this flame thats been giving other people just as a hard time, and for many others, even worse, for other folks that are just like you.
and its hard for me to not doomscroll, or to not watch content that discusses transphobia, because it only strengthens the feeling of "i have to be there for other people in this community". and at first it feels empowering, to want to help and be there for others, but after a while it can evolve into something that i would even say your brain is mainly doing to help keep you alive, because its easy to get sucked into the "whats the point in living when i cant live peacefully" mindset, but then you realize you can help others, and then the only sense of purpose sets in. and then it has the ability to snowball into feeling like this is what youre "built" to do, like i mentioned before.
so all this to say that this game is fucking amazing lol.