i am so just want a hug but every time i fucking ask its like “why” or its something sexual i hate my body for the way i look i just want to be normal i have been on a 5 month of no S/H but i feel like i cant wait anymore i have to do something i need to DO something i HATE MYSELF SO FUCKING MUCH i just wanna cry but i cant i am only fucking 12 but my life is depression and suicide and hate i never get to be alone i hate myself i wanna die but i love my friends and i am scared to leave them alone in this shit hole of a world we have i cant even walk at the park without people looking at my body i hate going to the beach alone i hate being being myself i just hate it i wanna die..
what are some things you love? Your friends you said? Think about your best memories, and look for beauty in everyday life. Challenge yourself. See how much you can find. I like to focus on things that distract me and make me smile. And maybe, the people who look at you are thinking you look better than them. You never know. and then they see someone else and forget. I hope this helps at least a tiny bit. You are loved.