Haha I hate myself.
What did I do to piss God off so much? Did I commit some kind of horrible crime?
I wish I could just dissappear.
Maybe a truck might run me over on my way to school. Wishful thinking.
I just want to grab a knife and stab it right through my ear. I hate this. I hate everything.
Just kill me already. Please just kill me. I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't wanna be here anymore.
Why? I do so much. For what? My friends treat me like some- some ragdoll they can just toss around and throw away whenever they're bored with it.
I give so much, I do so much. But I'm only their friend when it's convenient for them. They only remember I exist when it's convenient for them, but what about me? Do my opinions matter to you at all? Does it matter to you what I want?
You just barge into my home unannounced and decide we should hang out all of a sudden like- when did I agree? When did I say yes? "Cmon just come with usss" I DONT WANT TO OKAY I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE RIGHT NOW SO LEAVE ME ALONE
I'm a horrible friend. What do I think I'm better than them? They don't deserve to be treated like this. They didn't do anything, they just wanted to hang out with me. I'm too distant. I always lose friends like this. Because I'm too distant. I always just wanna be alone. This is why they all hate me. They're all gonna get sick of me. I know they will. They all hate me. I'm sorry. I'm a horrible person. Please don't hate me. Please don't hate me I'm sorry. Why. Why do I keep doing this. All I do is mess things up. It's what I'm good for I guess. Making a mess of things.
I hate myself. I hate everyone. I hate this. Please just kill me.