Sometimes certain textures make me feel bad like I want to throw up or cry or just throw the weirdly textured thing away and then cry. Boiled eggs, wet dishes, those wrinkles you get on your skin when you're in water. I can't be the knly one who hates those wrinkles.
idk. Usually when ppl talk abt weird stuff like that it's relatable. Like when ur rubbing ur eyes for a long time and see weird moving shapes (suck at describing it but ok) but anyways. Idk why it's j you. Sometimes I feel slightly nauseous and sometimes like I wanna throw up a Lil bit every now and then but nothing rlly causes it like touching stuff.
it's not just textures, when people get upset at me for something I feel nauseous or when I get upset, or when I think about something I like I get nauseous, not like butterflies, like actually nauseous, when I talk to much or write too much or read too much. I just get dizzy or nauseous a lot. And I hate the sound of toilets flushing I always have to run out of the bathroom right after. And every time I do anything it has to be done in like a certain order or I feel uncomfortable abt it. And my coffee, I have pretty big coffee cup because I need enough coffee to last the whole day so I drink slowly so it lasts, if it doesn't I just spend the rest of the day looking for something to drink cause if I don't have something next to me to drink I feel uncomfortable. Even just water I need something next to me. And I can't drink my coffee when other people are around I don't know but in my brain it's like illegal to drink it around others. I apologize to my plushies every time I'm too harsh iwth them even though I know they're not real but it feels like they are and it's so weird cause they're not and they can't feel and they don't care if I hold them from their face or throw them at the wall. I hate staying over at other people's houses I just hate the weird environment, it feels uncomfortable. We're supposed to go meet family soon but idk if I can do it I don't wanna leave I just wanna stay here and be normal. I don't know why I just don't like certain things, for no real reason, it just makes me uncomfortable.