Don't sell yourself short, I think the redraw is pretty! I love seeing people's own styles or interpretations on the characters that I've made. That and your art style is adorable and I enjoy seeing them! (I checked out your tumblr earlier, the sleeping Ichigo is just way too cute!! 😭)
Learning how to make a game can be frustrating at times, especially for people who don't normally code (like me lol). I mostly only copy paste codes, but even that can be confusing too sometimes. You can try renpy if you're looking to making your own visual novel. It can be confusing when you first use it, but once you get the hang of it, you'll be able to make a simple VN in no time.
And please don't feel bad for rambling! I love reading/listening to people's ramblings LMAO I'm just happy that you're enjoying yourself!