You ever wanted so bad to just burst out in tears and start screaming curse words at the top of your lungs but nothing comes out and you just go along as if you didn't want to. Yea.
Everytime "Sprinkle don't be rude to your sister" "you can't shout at your older sister" but then when I'm the one complaining "oh give her a break she's sick" "I'm sure she didn't mean to" "It's okay, she didn't mean it"
My fucking sister. "Yk she stopped needing my help studying at this age younger than you" she's so great she's becoming a doctor, she's got perfect grades, wow I bet it must be great to have a sister that sets expectations you can never live up to. Now everyone is looking at me and I have nothing to offer. It's al about my dumb sister. Why did my mom need another child, couldn't she have just stopped at two.
Whatever, that's not even why I'm upset. It's all cause of those stupid exams I wish they would just rot in hell.
I don't care anymore. Ok I'll repeat the year. I just don't care... nothing matters.