the secret message is heart breaking
(edit) why is he so depressed in the game
I don't think he's depressed. You know how, when bad things and good things happen, you tend to remember the bad things really well? I think he just had a lot of not-so-nice memories stuck in his head and wanted to share them. But he had a lot of good to go with the bad. I think the good made it all worth it. He had a long life and seemed pretty happy after it all :)