Oh so in the end Lipstor can't keep her patience...I think I know who pull the trigger that cause of this problem. I think u need to say sorry for her so it can probably changed her decision🙁
And also there a one thing that I want to give an advice to u Lipstor. I'm introvert so I'm not good at talking to people but there's a thing that catch my attention based on what u said u think ur worthless so u said that. I always observing people, and humans feels anxiety, doubt, anger and feel like ur no longer need in this world. Those my examples are causes of stress so ur experiencing a stress because of lack of sleep, negative comments, and also maybe u are lack at social interactions. Try to rest in online and try to play offline(In real life) meet ur friends, family, do ur favorite hobby or vacation this thing may help to relieve your body and mind. You're human ur not different from others, everybody always need to get rid the biggest obstacle and you are on that situation it depends on you on how u will solve that problem. But don't give up proved in that bastard ur not weak.