Wow, you shouldn't feel this way at all. People don't like the others less or more like that, everyone is special on their own way and we like people for that. You helped a lot throughout these times so you shouldn't let these past thoughts hurt you.
I was looking forward to your drawings,but I'm surprised your situation.😰 Maybe there is something wrong with the power supply and it's over-current.(?)
Meow has never been angry with you. He was worried about you, that he might have made you sad. And I'm worried about you too.😢 Everyone wishes you happiness and health.