Wow, just wow! Arguably the deepest and the darkest game I've played in a while.
Are you too depressed? Because putting all that aesthetics in game without experiencing seems very unlikely. I just don't understand why you ended the game with the suicide. Which makes me think that this is not your story as you are still alive. But wait,what if you have completed the game halfway and then another developer took over the project after your self-slaughter. But how did he manage to complete the project? Is he too suffering from depression? Is he too alive? The game has so many unanswered questions. Answer me if you are alive!