Craving fried rice rn- yesterday it was ramen… nab I still want ramen. I want both. Like a big plate. And a nice drink. Idk what drink tho. Taro? No idk. Man I just want sum food. Sashimi would be so good rn. Or like… fried sushi. Breaded. That’s not a thing but I want it. Or like a really good french toast. All of which I can’t have. I hate food. No I love food, I just hate it. Like I just want food but it’s never something I can have. Always want what you can’t have. So sad. Hungry. But I’m not really hungry. I wanna vomit. What even is anything anymore. Is anything real. For all I know, I could be in a coma. I could be dreaming right now. And it just feels real but it isn’t. What if one day, I achieved my dream job then i’d wake up and realize that I’m just a kid and it was just a dream that happened over the span of 8 hours despite it feeling like years had passed. Is thag why everything I eat doesn’t feel like I ate it?