Nobody understands. Nobody ever did. The people I trusted either left, turned out to be awful or fake, or just decided to use me as their personal therapist to then leave and my naive and kind self continued to trust them. Well you know what? Fuck that! I might be mean or rude now but at least I won't be used anymore, physically and mentally for some asshole's sick urges. Sure I've been called toxic and manipulative, and sure it changed people's views on me but at this rate o don't care anymore. I don't have empathy left, and at this rate in life all I want is death now.