I was in a private lesson, as per usual and everything seemed relatively normal. Until the end of the lesson, where she said “you know Sprinkle (not my real name obvi) you’re smart, but you don’t focus.”
So I say “I know, but I prefer to do whatever the frig I want and I also have a short attention span.” (Not those exact words but u get it)
“No, I mean you’re smart. If you focus, you could do great things.”
“Miss I just told you I’m a free thinker, I’m right brained you absolute doorknob.” (Not those exact words but u get it)
“No. You’re left brained.”
“…excuse me?”
“Remember that one things with the rocks that I told you about to explain time management to you? Yeah, you gotta put the big rocks first otherwise you won’t fit them. Those big rocks are your studies and then you can do your hobbies.”
“…”
“Sprinkle (not my real name) in this world your hobbies can’t be your job. You need a degree to make it anywhere in life.”
“…”
“Here let me give you an example, this random stranger you’re hearing about just now is an actor, musician and singer. He’s garbage at all 3 of those things but people praise him anyway because he has a PhD.”
“…”
“You see sweetie, you’re really smart. You’re left brained, when you use your brain, you can do great things, you just won’t make it with your art. Become an engineer or something.”
…I was tryna be nice but… I’m boutta throw hands if this woman even thinks for a second that is okay to say to someone.
I knew a lot of people think art isn’t a career, but from someone you USED TO like, from someone who has a daughter in graphic design in college, from someone you trusted, being told that you won’t make it anywhere with YOUR art. Not just any art, your art isn’t good enough, your art isn’t inspiring, it’s just some dumb hobby, you’re smart, you can put your studies first and you can make it in a real job. That hurts someone. How could you say that to a 13 year old student who you know is dealing with a lot right now, who you know sees art as one of the only good things in their life right now, how could you just say that like it’s nothing and it’s okay. Sure I’m smart, doesn’t mean I like it, doesn’t mean that’s what I want from life, and it isn’t because being smart will only send me into a dark deep hole of depression.
Not only that she tried to dictate who I was like she was fucking all-knowing or some shit. If I say I’m not left-brained then I’m not left-brained and that is that. Just because you think I’m something doesn’t mean I am that thing until I say otherwise. I say who I am not you.
If we had been closer, a comment like that might’ve just made me go into a straight up mental breakdown to the point where I would feel like nothing is even worth it anymore, can you imagine that for a moment. What a bitch, I’m glad I’ll never see her face again.
