Hi, not trying to discredit or invalidate anything you said but can you maybe delete these posts? Sorry it's just this is a public chat and these have a LOT of triggers, a lot of us really can't handle seeing stuff like this. We generally have an agreement to not post stuff like this on here or if we really need to, do it in a thread or in a community you've made specifically to vent. It's too easy for anyone to see it here. I get that you're having a hard time and just want to rant, but this really isn't the place to do it. Thank you!