i dont think you looked into it enough, you only scratched the surface. that may be BECAUSE of your depression. but, for someone with a clear head, it shows you the voice in your head. the unneeded effort for small things. the constant desire to go off track, the laziness. the self-destructive thoughts. the game is much more than what it seems on the surface. however, everyone's experience is different. i really hope you make a smooth recovery and never have to suffer again, and can one day see this game for what it truly is. i hope one day you are truly happy for the rest of your life :)