(Im gonna have a brain malfunction -v-)
"....What am i even saying...it's pointless..."
He let go of him and turned around, slowly walking back to the castle
(oof-yeah you really did-if only cuz he looks like a lunarrrr-)
My darling prince,
Yours. I keep stumbling over this word, coming back to it. "It felt as if I belonged to you....". I did. I did belong to you-I was so completely enraptured, each and every waking moment-my thoughts were only of you...and now here I am with a scrambled mind and too much to even try to comprehend, and all I can think of is returning to that time...Yours. I WANT to be yours. I want to belong to you again-but I can't-I know I can't-SHE'D never let me, even if I could drop my inhibitions....I-it can't be...I'm not perfect. I'm not-I know I'm not. I'm awful....I'm awful and cruel and thoroughly unworthy of love. You only yearn for what I once was-you love the me you knew-as a friend at the very least....but I'm not that person. I don't know who I am anymore...yours. Yours, yours, yours, yours, yours, GODS I love the feeling of that word-
Varian.
(Yeeeeah, you know just take out the staff and the necklaces, which is for some reason apart of the staff, and maaaaybe he would look normal lol)
As he read on, his once pissed expression his tight hold of he paper became a look of worried...and confusion, his hand now gently holding the slightly crumbled paper...when he finished reading the paper he couldn't really think of what to do...he wanted him to just be with him, sure he loved him...but he didn't wanna keep him as a damn item! Yet...he felt as if that's all he thought he was to him...he wanted to show him that's not true but...will that ever happen?